Unsettled

I guess I feel a little defeated today.  There is a unique kind of loneliness someone feels when they're with people they love but they have no feeling of real connection to them.  I think Robin Williams has a famous quote, "I used to think that the worst thing that could happen to me would be to end up all alone.  Now I know that the worst thing is to end up with people that make you feel all alone".  Or something like that, and I totally know what he means.  Basically, my close friends group just doesn't invite me to things anymore, and when I am with them I'm still like an outsider.  I don't really know what happened because that is new to this year, but it's okay.  Some of them weren't even great friends to me to begin with.  The painful part is seeing my old best friend replace me with a girl who is a straight up bully to people.  It makes me feel like I'm below this new girl somehow because my friend chose her over me.  It's just... unsettling.